In LOVE, out of PAIN !!!!
In Love Out Of Pain
She picks up her cell phone and tries to find a picture of them together, she had deleted them all, but she knew there would b one, at least. After searching for good two minutes, she gets one, one where they are in their new car and their first selfie in car.
A tear rolls down from her eye, and she is quick in wiping it off. She closes her eyes and goes into flashback.
It was November 2013 when Rohan was flying to Bangkok with some friends, he had not told her any details except that he’s leaving!! He had messaged her, “I'm leaving India and whatever was between us is over. Move on in your life and be happy.” She tried to get him back, but all in vain. He was clear of what he had just said.
She shakes her head and opens her eyes. She’s crying now, like a small baby but mutely!!
She msgs her sister, Roxette and she opens up with her, for she can understand her well. Roxette tries to calm her down but she was going on telling how it was back then!! How Rohan had gone on his knees to propose her and how the relation went for two and a half years!!
She then opens up her laptop and double clicks on a folder named “DND”, the folder where she had kept all pics she had of him, and them together!! She randomly opens up some images and yet again she goes numb.
She clicks on the pic where she and he are sharing a single corn knob and they looked happy, totally in love. Next she clicks on a photo which was their first pic together on 7th September 2011. She remembers how she was awkward while getting it clicked. Next was a pic of their rings!! The rings they had gifted each other. She keeps clicking on few pics and remembers each and every detail minutely of how was it clicked.
She remembers the endless phone calls they did and how each one ended with “I love you”, how they had celebrated 31st ni8, how they had gone Kerala, the club outings, the farmhouse parties , the movies, how they would go out for shopping, how he taught her to be classy and b posh!!
She remembers how for them wrapping tightly in each others’ arms and sleeping was what they looked forward for and not for sex… how he would feed her food and make her sleep by stroking her hair and kissing her forehead. She would not feel he’s behind her body because he would let her roam in his house only in a loose tee & without a bra inside. How he would kiss her forehead when she left his house and again at the bus stop, yesh he would always come to drop her to the nearest bus depot. How he was lucky for her, how the small fights would still end up with, “I love you, I am sorry”.
She had met his mom, and had made a chocolate cake which ultimately was appreciated and was said, “Next time make something spicy”. How when she met his dad, he had given her dozens of mangoes from their garden. How he would talk about her with his family. How he introduced her to his friends saying, “She’s my baby, my wifey”.
She missed him :( she missed them.
She cried, she howled.
She wished, if the things hadn't turned they did, if they were still together, if he too missed her a little bit, if she could really move on, if she could ever find someone who loved her and not wanting to get inside her pants!!
She shakes her head in disappointment & got up, washed her face with cold water and she realized her heart was colder!! She wipes it off, smiles and says to herself, “life is too long to say a final good bye” !!
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