Unrequited Love !! (Part 2)

It was a weekend and I was watching some videos on YouTube, when a friend of mine sent me a message on Whatsapp.

'Can I ask you a question?', he asked.

Lately, dreaded by this question, I was a bit sceptical to revert. But nevertheless I replied, 'Sure. Go ahead’

'How do you feel when you see the person you love, with someone else?', he asked

There! That one! The one I literally didn’t want to answer, but I did.

'I feel nothing.', I texted back.

'I know you do feel something for sure, I just want to hear it from you.', he texted

'I don't feel anything; apart from being happy for him, I feel nothing.'

'How come you feel nothing? You loved him!', he asked.

I winced at that message. It suddenly made it sound so in the past!

'Not loved, I still do!', I replied.

'Then how come, you don't feel bad or sad or anything seeing him, putting his arm around someone else's waist and going on fancy dates? Did you see his pictures? He is with some girl, not you!' he asked.

I had a smile on my face, while I texted back, 'Oh yes, I did see both his and her photos, going on dates, eating pizza and going for shopping. But did you see, how happy he seemed to be around her, then why should I be sad? In fact, I am happy.’

'Just because he is happy?' he asked.

'Yes! Because seeing him happy is all I ever want, with anyone else also, for that matter!' I texted back

'I am sure you feel something other than happiness?!' he asked, not ready to give up

'To be really frank, yes I feel a bit broken, but then I have made peace with it. He never had any feelings for me. Only if had he told me that 2 years ago, I would have been in a better place than what I am right now. He had asked for some time, which I happily gave. And then he lied about this girl, and only after I coerced him, he opened up about them. Not only that, he said, something which hurt me.' I finally let the thoughts flow.

'What did he say?' he texted, demanding more details

'Nothing much. But that I have a mature thinking and that he is looking for a young and carefree person, and that he didn't tell me because I would have made a mockery out of it. Also that he doesn't want to share his personal life or want any comments on it.' I replied, keeping few, concise details only to myself.

'Duh! Such a douche bag he is! He has shared so much with you, and now he wants to keep his life personal? Then why did he allow his girl to post it all over the social media? Keep personal, eh, else be ready for comments!' he replied, infuriated with the details.

'Ah come on. That's fine. Those pics don't hurt me. Not anymore. In fact I have liked a few of them. What did hurt me was that how he just forgot, that I was there for him, always! When that girl who allegedly said he is a womaniser and broke up with him. Then came another who did all the drama to get him. Then his ex came in to the picture, asking if there is any scope for them coming back together. I was there, bloody all the time! When he was going through the bad days, those hospitalizations, those small health or personal issues, I have prayed, kept fasts for him, have loved him, silently, not asking anything in return, and then he keeps secrets, for more than a year, hiding his relationship. When asked, he says, “I knew you would comment, hence didn't!” Blah! Chalo, pyaar na sahi, dosti toh dhang se nibha lete?'

'So you feel betrayed? Do you?' he asked

'Yes, betrayed and empty. As a friend I feel betrayed; that my friendship wasn’t enough for him to keep transparency between us. But that's fine. I have no grudges against him and neither against her. It is just, I always felt we would make a far better pair. I had this imaginary world where we are together, as we are so alike, almost in all aspects! But I guess, it's fine. If he is okay, everything is fine.' I typed, a tear formed at the corner of my eye.

‘But why are you asking about all this suddenly? Is everything alright?’, I asked him

'You know, I love this girl, Nisha, and it tears me apart that we cannot be anything but only friends. I am not as strong as you. I see her everywhere! When I try to sleep, her beautiful face comes in front of my eyes. I don't know what should I do?', he asked.

My heart wept for him… I knew he had been in love with Nisha for a very long time now… And all she did was play around, and lead him to the path where she won’t be there! I didn’t know what to say to him. He is so innocent and his love so pure!

'In that case, let her go. Believe me, if it is meant for you, then it would come back, else just keep moving ahead. Eventually you would meet. ' I said.

'I cant! It is not that easy, you know?’ he said and sent a pic in which they both are laughing heartily and his gaze fixed on her. 'See? How happy I am when she is around? She is my smile, my happiness, my world. She is all I think about and she is all I want to be with' he said.

‘I feel it my friend. I understand it. It doesn’t work like that’, I wanted to say.

I sent him a pic of mine with the guy I was in madly love with, and said, 'Look. Look at this pic, do you see any less love in my eyes? And feel he isn’t my happiness? But the sad part is, not everyone you love would love you back in the same way. In that case, what will you do? Prove? And to whom? Someone who doesn't want to see? No. You can love them, in silence. In those prayers, asking for their good health and their happiness. It all seems simple to say, you would say, but it is not. Trust me. But then how long can you wait on someone’s door? Eventually you would give up!' I told him.

'Okay, but I will wait for her.' he said.

'Sure. If that is what you want to do. But don't run behind and keep poking, asking for the love to be returned. Meanwhile, you work on your life, your dreams and things will fall into places. And if you feel demotivated, or difficult while doing this, you can text me anytime!' I replied.

'i so love you, truly! You know how to get me back on track' he sent with a heart emoticon.

I could do nothing but smile and sent him 'that's what friends are for, isn't it? And yes, I love you too' followed by a heart emotion.

The tales of unrequited love can be found almost everywhere. Most of the people do not end up with the person they are in true love with. But does that make them a bit harsh or rude? Maybe, some cannot be strong enough to hide their feelings. But majority of them would be seen around you, smiling, helping people, fighting with their own self, and with hopes that one day, they too would find someone who would love them, with whole heart, unconditionally; until then,

Andhera tera, mene le liya, mera ujala sitara tere naam kia!