Waiting for Love

Bored and nothing to do, I was randomly checking my Facebook account, when I got a notification of a school friend ‘liking’ my profile picture. I check her display pic from the notification and could see that she has put on some weight; curious, I check her   account and saw that she has indeed put on a lot of weight and her face had heavy make-up.

I scroll down to check more pictures and saw an album where her husband is kissing her beautiful baby bump and I had a twirl of emotions inside my heart. Indeed, I was delighted to see that my school friend is expecting a baby! I check few more photos and saw how happy she looks!

And suddenly, I was lost in the reverie of memories.

Few years ago, when we were in school and later in high school, I still remember, they were one of the cutest couple I had seen. Holding hands, kissing in empty lab room, stealing glances across classroom, and those little fights!

Later when the girl and I were in same degree college, she happened to tell me that her mom is against her relationship and has strictly opposed any idea of marriage as well. Off course I felt bad, because I have grown up seeing a fairy tale-like love story of my parents and believing one day I would have one too, I always adored love stories and hoped that they end up in holy matrimony with the same person.

Slowly, fights and arguments started creeping in their relationship and eventually she decided to break up.

The guy would come to our college just to see her and request her to re-think her decision and tell her how much he loved her!

My heart would sink seeing him like this, day after day.

Hence, one day I decided to make them meet somewhere and have them talk out and work on the situation. After 3 long hours of discussion, I saw them walking hand in hand and a big smile across their faces, “we are together”, he said looking at her and kissed her forehead. 
Her face lit up and she thanked me for the interference. I was delighted and could only bless the couple.

A couple later she messaged me inviting for their wedding. I couldn’t make it because of the busy job schedule, but I did congratulate her.

Time flies so quick; today, they are the expecting parents!

My heart was filled with void and wanted to bury my face in pillow and cry my heart out; why don’t I get something so special? Years and year have passed, and I am still struggling to find someone who is mine; someone who loves me unconditionally and won’t leave me alone, no matter what!

I sat down in a corner of my house, thinking.

People around me are finding love (either themselves or in their parent’s choices), they are getting married, expecting babies and celebrating their baby’s birthday and her I can’t manage to get some guy put efforts to talk with me or lest reply to my messages!

I feel dejected.

The time is running quickly, and I want to be in a relationship, to get married, have a nice home, start a family and own a dog!

Surely things are all destined or written and I will eventually find that person and marry him, but I want him to find his way to me quick! I want someone to look at me and kiss my forehead, to hold my hands or take our dog for a walk and cook meals on Sunday.

I have been waiting for what now seems like a forever and the wait doesn’t seem like ending.

Surely there is sunlight at the end of a deep dark tunnel, but I want to reach over at the end of it soon now.

I want to go home to someone and feel that life would feel better by just one warm hug. 

Someone who is not just my husband, but my best friend; we build each other, and we love each other and are equal partners in crime and each other’s biggest supporters and comforters!

It makes me wonder at the end of the day – is it too much to ask for?